Who Am I To Judge?

Posted by Elaine January 20, 2019 at 12:00 AM AEDT

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Dressed in a tiny bright pink bikini, at first sight I though he was a girl. As he moved closer I discovered that this was a middle aged man coming towards me as we waited to capture pictures of another Gold Coast sunrise. With his pink handbag over his shoulder and his stuffed toys it was clear this man was one who didn’t mind what people thought of him.

He stood not far from me, his eyes staring intently at a young woman doing exercises on the grass right beside him. Why was he staring at her? I wondered. Was he some kind of pervert? If I’d been this girl I would have immediately moved away but she continued to do her stretches with his gaze firmly fixed on her.

As time passed it became clearer that he wasn’t the pervert I suspected he was. It was his patch of grass she was exercising on and his staring eventually forced her to move to another patch of grass as he set up camp for the day.

But why did I so easily judge him? I wasn’t proud of my first reaction as I had to check my attitude towards him. I am called to bring love and light to the world, not suspicion or any other attitude for that matter.

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He seemed oblivious to the snickers and stares he got from everyone passing by. One man who didn’t approve of him was verbally abusive, gesturing to him to go away, In this man’s protest at what he believed was wrong, his behaviour was also questionable.

I wondered…
What must life be like for someone who believes they should be someone else? He was clearly a masculine middle aged man, who’s designer choices were a fluorescence pink watch, tiny pink hand bags and shoulder length hair. While I’m way too concerned about if my appearance is acceptable to others, it seemed he cared little what others thought though his appearance would make him a target for everyone.

In the same spot again this morning he began to set up in front of us with the bags of stuffed toys, although wearing a different bikini, clearly this is his daily routine.

As we sat watching the beach he began to set up camp for the day with two chairs, not one. I wondered if he hoped someone would come and sit with him as he moved his chair one way then another, then moved it again.

These animals were so much more than toys, they meant love for him. They were his family, possibly giving him escape from the stares of the real world.

Eventually he laid down on a towel as I saw him carefully bring one of his chairs, the second one he’d brought for his friends, closer to provide them shade before he lovingly brought out each stuffed toy, placing them down one by one to rest in the shade beside him. I was moved by compassion as his arm leaned over to rest on one as someone he loved.

I don’t know what life has been like for him. And although his girlish attire and his behaviour were odd, I’m sure he meant no harm. Maybe he was just making his way in our cold and harsh world the best way he knew how…

I’m not proud of my instant reaction when first I laid eyes on him. I’m thankful God pulled me back into line. God doesn’t judge us for all we do wrong, He died on the cross to save us from ourselves, so what right do I have to question the actions of him?

And my thoughts and actions will one day be judged!

“Refuse to be a critic full of bias toward others, and judgment will not be passed on you.
For you’ll be judged by the same standard that you’ve used to judge others. The measurement you use on them will be used on you. Why would you focus on the flaw in someone else’s life and yet fail to notice the glaring flaws of your own? Matthew 7:1-3 TPT

We must live in the Holy Spirit and follow after him. So may we never be arrogant, or look down on another, for each of us is an original. Galatians 5:25-26 TPT

I’m a long way from perfect, that’s why Jesus died for me. God still has a way to go with me before I’m completely the way He wants me but I’m thankful by His supreme love, he accepts me anyway!

If you’re moved with compassion to be the one God asks us to be, please share His love and hope to someone else’s world!

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